beckettstyle

Is this too much?

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 01:03:11 GMT

* I want someone in my life, that loves me for me.
* I want someone to call me beautiful when I look awful!
* I want someone who loves music just as much as me.
* I want someone who will laugh
* I want someone who loves childish things still
(coloring, flying kites, blowing bublles, ect)
* I want someone who knows that I'm not perfect
* I want someone to make me smile not cry
* I want someone honest and faithful
* I want someone who loves music just as much as me if not more
* I want someone to make me a stronger person
* I want someone to kiss the tears that fall away
* I want someone, is that to much to ask for???

life.

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 01:57:36 GMT

So I haven't wrote in this in a very long time.
Many Changes have happend since then.
Lets take the time and refresh memories.
July- that boy struck out and never got my hear, just broke it.
My friends band is offically over there is no longer " The End Of An Era".
Went up north for our family reunion- no comments to kenny..crazy weekend.
My sister got sick. =[
August- Went to Cedar Point.
Sept.- Labor Day party , started my last year of school, went to cedart point once again.
Ocotber- went to homecoming and had the worst time ever, got my prom date =],went trick or treating but not with my g like planned- went as ass*lee simpson.
November...
Over the past few months a lot of new stuff has happened.
I realize when you need to be there for someone else you are always there but they seem to never be able to be there. I'm learing to tell people how i feel when I feel it.Over the summer my friend keith no long wanted to be my friend. It was one of the hardest things and he was one of the people i expected to be there at my wedding.. it makes live harder and I think about him EVERYDAY!. I wish he would just talk to me again.. but he chose a girl instead. I have met some great people this year tho, I started talking to my friend kevin who I havent really talked to since sophmore year, Me and alisha have had our ups and downs, I have met an amazing friend Alex in peer mediation and I hope we build a stong friendship because he seems like someone i could always count on no matter what. I went to a program called challenge day and im challening myself to become a better person and do what i need to do...Went to my uncles suprise party last weekend which was a blast. I love my family and friends..

thats all for now..

true.fucking.love

I'll make you want it. I know I keep sucking you in..

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 01:21:58 GMT

So today I needed to write my thoughts down, for me, myself & I.

Things have been going good, i guess.
I went to Chicago for a week and just got back late thursday night.
We seen Fall Out Boy while we were there and got burnt to a crisp!
The Sun is no longer my friend.

Boys Will Be Boys...
They confuse me so much! I wish I could understand them.
One min. they want you..the next they want someone else..but then there back?
I think they try it before they buy it?
They just make no sense?
& want you to forgive & forget
& let them have another chance.
It's not that easy.
I'm not pathetic.

*Dancing Crazy.

True.Fucking.Love.

Make up your mind baby.
I dont have forever.

Baby, seasons change but people don't!

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 01:06:59 GMT

I havent wrote in almost a month..
I miss the way things use to be with a certain friend of mine...
I also realized that if i could change one thing about me i would def. wish i could stop be so forgiving.. ill take anyone back and forgive them no matter what hell they put me threw...

I cant wait to go to Chi-Town to see the one boys who make my life better..
Fall Out Boy..June 11th 07! FOBconcer#4

=] life.doesnt.get.much.better.then.that

Follow your heart you said to me... but what happens when my heart bleeds..

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 23:57:44 GMT

Happy Valentines Day.
Love never wanted me.
But I took it anyways..

I cant stop crying. I miss my G and keith so much. I need Bay City back so BAD! It hurts so bad being here. I want everything back how it was before. I hate fake smiles. I cant keep putting it on everyday...

True.Fucking.Love

Babys world.

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 01:18:29 GMT

I havent wrote in here for a few weeks. A lot is new. So, I went to Chicago on monday until wed. I won two tickets to see Fall Out Boy since im an overcast kid. It was a blast. The show was def. different, you could tell they were in their home town! I want to live there so bad. I also moved back to my home town.. Its gonna suck not living in B.C. anymore but im gonna make it work. A couple more weeks im going to See Cartel, Cobra*ship, Boys like girls and New Atlantic with my friends. its gonna be a blast.

more later.
True.Fucking.Love

I could write it better then you ever felt it..

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 20:18:13 GMT

I have so much going on right now.
Im moving back to my old neighborhood.
Im more sad then excited.
I love my friends here so much. and my favorite band,
[www.myspace.com/theendofanerarock]
I won two tickets to see Fall Out Boy In Chicago.
So im very excited to go to that show with my G, it will be a blast.
Boys make my dizzy.
Trying to figure them out.
You know there with someone but you wonder if there really happy. Or just put a fake smile on.

If you lie you dont deserve to have friends...

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 23:53:52 GMT

so latley I have had this feeling I was being lied to and guess what I was.
He was lying about this stupid stuff for like no reason at all. I dont get it.

I discovered this band called Pathway to Providence.
I really like them.

MySpace Link:
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=7136238

So much to write
So little time
how can I pinpoint our love
in just a few lines
I'll start with the first time we both kissed
the rain poured down when we touched lips

(( I wish I had someone I could say this too.))

it was you i was thinking of..

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 03:26:15 GMT

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
I swear to God this mix could sink the sun
But it was you I was thinking of

wow. I need a break for a minute to breath.. things are going so fast. i cant belive christma is already here.. have a merry christmas you guys.=]

OPEN YOUR EYES! IM STANDING RIGHT HERE!

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 02:06:19 GMT

I wonder sometimes.. will I ever find love. I mean real LOVE. I want the boy whos gonna be there for me. I want to trust him and I want him to trust me... he has to be out there.. but where?

Fall Out Boy: 4 more days.
Christmas is coming! YAY!

why can you read me like no one else?

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 02:54:57 GMT

Why don't you open up your eyes?
These are more than passing glances
Why don't you say what's on your mind?
Cause I'm taking all the chances

11 Days till i see my boyz again!

No school today. tomrrow making the best PANIC! AT THE DISCO VIDEO EVER!!! & sledding..even if theres no more snow. =]

143

True.Fucking.Love

When I See You Smile Tears Run Down My Face...

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 04:11:31 GMT

Days have turned into months and pretty soon they'll be years.
Sometimes I wonder if i will every find love again.
I wonder will he treat me right or put me back in the same situation? People often say and do things that they dont mean.. but once theyve done it- theres no way to fixs things. In order to find love I think you have to suffer a few heart breaks first..which sucks..

Last night was another amazing night of my life.Yes another panic concert. =] Me and my sister were in an elevator with Andrew from (soco) he was so adorable. he made me nervouse and excited. how does that happend? after the concert i spoke to zackk and of course he rememebed me getting my bra signed last tour and he said he would let the boys know i was there. which made me happy. i told him next time they were in MI that i would see him and he laughed and said i know i will. its awsome to know he remembers me..usually they forget. The boys were not allowed to come out and talk because of some crazy fan last tour. which made me up set but i understood its for their saftey so dont be writting any hate mail like some people there because thats why you dont deserve to meet them. cut them a break. they just preformed there whole cd plus two covers for you.

True.Fucking.Love

Lets all play the lottery so we can buy all our dreams...

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 01:46:26 GMT

So ive been getting lazy on this.
Ive had alot going on.
Its crazy living up here.
Theres always something to do.
I always hang out with my best friend/ sister.

15 Days till Panic! At the Disco!

http://www.friendsorenemies.com/
^ Halloween pictures.

I LIKE HOW WE ARE WHEN WE DRIVE IN YOUR CAR

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 02:59:31 GMT

Things are ment to happen.
They happen for a reason.
Sometimes I think people dont understand that.
You cant make think happen.

Sometimes I wonder what id change if I could go back in time. Sometimes I wonder what if I wasnt the good kid I am and did crazy things like my brother.

[THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TOO]
TOMRROW SAW III & ALISHAS HOUSE
TUESDAY HALLOWEEN
NOV 4 SUPRISE PARTY
NOV 11 SONIC SKATE
NOV 21 PANIC! AT THE DISCO CONCERT #3

TRUE.FUCKING.LOVE

Lips Of An Angel..

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 03:40:26 GMT

Sometimes love is odd. You don't know who really wants you or who just wants to hit it and quit it. Guys are confusing and somewhat odd sometimes and say weird things..I like this boy but I dont know if id actually want to date him.. hes completley the oppisote and someone i would never really date..but hes so nice and im glad were friends..

True.Love.

UPCOMING EVENTS:
Tonight:Tigers Party
Saturday Night: Halloween Party
Sunday:Home Sweet Home
Tuesday:Trick Or Treating.( yea im too old but idc)

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 01:27:50 GMT

Panic! At The Disco.
November 21st.2006.
=]

i'm kind of a big thing.

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 18:22:12 GMT

we are the girls with the big sun glasses.
we are the girls with not only pretty faces.
we are the girls with a sense of style.
we are the girls who have the best taste in music.
we are the girls who dont have to impress but choose to.
we are the girls who wil try anything once.
we are the girls who shop at hollister and hot topic
we are the girls who ARENT POSERS.
we are the girls who think like guys.
we are the girls who love a guy in tight pants.
we are the girls who want to marry our favorite rock star because of what they do in there bands not because there hott. although its a plus.
we are the girls who want to be something big.
we are the gils who love our cell phones but never call anyone back.
we are the girls who love to drive with the windows down.
we are the girls who collect purses.
we are the girls who love to go to concerts.
we are the girls who will kick your ass.
we are the girls...
& so much more.

Happy Birthday To My Dad =]

this is what you get.

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 01:41:43 GMT

October 1st. Yay!
Homecoming next weekend at my old school. it shall be fun! i know that game friday was fun! im hoping for no drama tho. but psh. yea right.

I always start to like someone then pick flaws. and then i dont like them anymore? whats up with that? does everyone do that? or just me?

Short.N'.Sweet

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 21:23:06 GMT

It feels like home.
i'm back in town.
I missed it so much.

The ways his eyes sparkle they make me want to melt.

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 23:25:26 GMT

True.Fucking.Love.

Boys will be Boys!

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 01:37:09 GMT

Love is blind.
one reason why i love american lit. a hott boy sits next to me =]

I can't belive summer is over.
Its so cold out now.
I hate it.
I have to open the windows while i sill can.

so last night we kinda of played a little prank on my friend keith. it was so funny. who the hell would belive us? ha ha.

Pretty girl is suffering.
While he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out.
what his intentions were about.
AND THATS WHAT YOU GET FOR FALLING AGAIN!!

Dust in the wind.
All we are is Dust in the wind.

True.Fucking.Love.

love sucks does that mean i should buy a coin operated boy?

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 22:31:30 GMT

ha. so lets see. today at school this kid made me sign a piece of paper for his friend because this kid thinks im famous.. i guess this other guy wants to date me and his friend gave me an "a" ha. its pretty sad when im getting a letter grade and not judged on personality...

i watched Rent last night i loved every min. of it..

im glade peter has a journal again.. i think my lifes gonna be better now..

True.Fucking.LOVE

cant wait for shelby and keith to come over =] ha,

PP&J

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 01:31:50 GMT

So yea im getting so bad and not updating this that often..
okay well my anyways.. i have had a good week hanging out with friends and going places..
last night me and my sister shelby went to our friend keiths house for a change.. and we watched scary movie 4 and stick it.. ha it was alot of fun..

i have a dress to wear to homecoming its my sisters and its so pretty i cant wait till oct. 8th

P!ATD concert on november 21st. yay.

ha. i'm reading this book called choke and i love it except this one line thats freaky.. it said Do you cut holes into your pockets so you can masterbate in public.. kinda freaky huh..

true.fucking.love

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 19:27:39 GMT

First off.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY OLDER SISTER SHELBY!!
(( sry im not home. so we cant hang out. we can tomrrow tho))

so yesterday i went to my friends birthday party and it was amazing and alot of funn seeing everyone again.we went to eat at olive garden then to the movies and seen Little Miss Sunshine. ha it was packed and i laughed at everything. and yes half the time i was the only one laughing.

Friday: on my way down we got stucke behind a school bus full of football playes. they all came to the back of the bus. and a couple of them took there shirts off. one waving a cell the other waving us to the side of the bus. and then this kid comes out there with a video camera? then we had to drive on the side of the bus for a sec. and thats where all the boys ended up ha. always fun

me and my sister discoved you can change all brittney spears songs. when it says baby you can say brendon and it will make sense. ha

True.Fucking.Love

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 01:37:30 GMT

so i started my new school today.
i didnt really care for it.
people here are so diff. from where i came from.
i found out my brothers joing the maries.
4 year contract im going to miss him.
i also found out my ex cheated on me he told me.. i got some guys down there who arent to happy about it and wanna kick his ass. ha
going to do h/w and watch a movie.

trueFuckinglove

poor pete. someone hacked his blog. im depressed so much for reading those any more...